To continue on my journey - this decade of 1960 found me searching more and more, spiritually and every other way, I tried the escape route through alchohol - it only led to a pitiful time filled with anxiety. I persevered - met people and really tried to put some semblance into my life - by this time I had a son and I thought that would fix me, it didn't work but it did give me a small sense of fullfilment. Later I tried the another relationship - another son, one more time I thought this will do it I now have purpose. Went to school to upgrade my business career - forgetting about my dreams of yesteryear when I had wanted to be concert pianist or a great artist. Again my life didn't have much substance as there was too much fear involved - I was riddled with fear, especially about myself. Couldn't seem to get the hang of it and so I ran again - my running consisted in changing addesses.
This brings me to the seventies of which I believe I finally admitted to myself I had to do something to change the way my life was going. I found something than enabled me to do that, fo be able to quite living in fantasy and face reality - which was a great organization that has helped millions.
The struggle began - I embarked on a program that gave me something that I have today - PEACE - it took every fibre of my being to keep me centered and focused on the positive instead of the negative. I came to, came to believe and was on my journey to change my life and maybe get backsome of the feelings I had lost - let me tell you it is not for people need an escape, it is for people who want to change. Life is wonderful when I am at peace with my God, and my days are filled with a sense of awareness, I am aware of whom I am today - I have let go of the past, forgiven people of whom I was disrespectful to, accepted the present for that is where I live, and continue forward into the future with a clean and loving heart - love for my fellow humans, look forward to life, thankyou, thankyou, thankyou it is good.